I understand how you feel and what you're going through. I AM the product of that lifetyle, and I know my mother struggled with my sister and I, but we never expected anything. We knew she loved us and understood about not having enough money. If you Google or Yahoo Search "Adopt A Family", you'll find many programs that will WANT to help you. Call some local churches and ask if they have an Adopt A Family program, and if so, ask if you can get on that program. Please, don't feel ashamed to ask for help...we are all brothers and sisters in Christ. Peace.